Ok...so I had to submit an article to the editorial board for the Valentine's edition. I've to admit I was a bit hesistant at first, being so inexperienced about love. Nevertheless, this is what I came up with ( please don't laugh at me! :p)
Being single... and available.....
So Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. Orders for fresh bouquets of flowers are being placed. Posh and fancy restaurants with candlelit settings are being booked well in advance for the day. Love messages are being exchanged via all sort of mediums- the SMS ( most popular), on air, or the humble snail mail for those who want to adhere to traditional ways. Yes, it’s that time of the year again- when everyone gets all lovey-dovey, and have this warm fuzzy feeling in their hearts. Those who are attached would be planning for that special day- where to take their loved one to, what to buy for their other half, what exactly to wear for the occasion, etc.
As for me, it’s just going to be yet another uneventful day in my life as an IMU student. Lectures in the morning, maybe a bit of studying at night. And maybe attending the talk organized by CF on ‘How to find the love of your life’.
Yeap, I’m still single just in case you’re wondering. I’ve managed to stay single for the 24 years of my life so far, and I don’t expect that to change anytime soon.
Why, you may ask? Maybe it’s due to the fact that I have observed since young how my mum has tough luck when it comes to men- thus carving in me the mentality that I can survive without them. I don’t know.
But lately I’ve been pondering on whether I’m missing out on something by being single. The realisation has just hit me that time is ticking , and maybe it’s time I starting looking for Mr.Right. Because before I know it, I would be celebrating my 30th birthday….still being single. And I’ll watch ‘Bridget Jones’s Diary’ and thinking to myself how much I can relate to her.
People around me are starting to fall in love. We’ve just finished one semester here in IMU and already I can notice some newly formed couples in my batch. Not to mention many other couples from senior batches. When I log onto Friendster, I see friends uploading photos of themselves with their girlfriends/boyfriends. One friend of mine wrote in her Friendster blog about how her guy actually planned a romantic night out for them recently, with the flowers and dinner and all that, knocking her off her feet in awe.
When I switch on the radio, love songs dominate the airwaves. Switch on the TV, I see dramas, soap operas, movies and romantic comedies- all involving people falling in love. Romance novels can be found in almost every bookstore. ( I, for one, am a fan of these).
Curious, I asked my housemate how is it like to be in a relationship and attached to someone. She admits that one thing she misses is her freedom. Her guy calls her up almost every night to ensure that she is back home early. He doesn’t like the idea of her going out late at night, not particularly with guy friends. (Talk about having an extra parent!)
What about if your relationship doesn’t work out in the end and you both breakup? Imagine having to go through all the pain, the heartache, the sleepness nights, the times you spend staring blankly at your plate of food and staring blankly at your lecture notes in front of you, thinking of him/her or mourning over the good old times you had together? And then crying over the next love song that comes on the air because the lyrics suddenly apply to you? How many people have committed suicide due to being heartbroken over love?
Don’t get me wrong, it’s totally alright to fall in love, if the right person comes to you.
When two people fall in love, the pure and true feelings for each other that comes with it is cannot be described. They cannot stop thinking about each other day and night. I’ve yet to experience the euphoric feeling that comes with being in love, maybe it’ll come to me in the future.
Until then, I’ll continue dreaming of the time when someone will finally fall in love with humble old me- present me with flowers and jewellery on my birthday and during Valentine’s Day, bring me to posh restaurants totally at his own expense, and most important of all accept me for who I am. I’ll keep on dreaming…..
p/s: This writer wants the readers to know that she’s still single and is perfectly happy being single. However, should any guy be interested in her, she is open to any possibilities……
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Happy New Year 2007!!
It's been a while since I've been blogging! Since lectures are resuming tomorrow and I'll be caught up in work again, I'd better squeeze a blog entry in tonight umm....I mean this morning.
The summative assessment which was held right before we had our Christmas/New Year break wasn't so bad after all. I think it was mainly because we were all so uber hyped up about it and all...... But still it WAS tough. Single choice questions certainly aren't as easy as they seem. You see, for example for question 1 - the question requires you to identify the false statement from the 5 choices given. You are very sure that A and C are correct statements, but you aren't so sure about the rest. So yeah, it is hard.
The Christmas/New Year break was a rather relaxing time for me, just sleeping in, going out for dinners, catching up with my favourite programme, and all that jazz.
And before I know it, the year 2006 has gone, and 2007 has arrived.
For me, the year 2006 gave me both bitter and sweet memories. What started out to be yet another normal year turned out to be the year in which a major change occured in my life. At the beginning of 2006, International Medical University certainly hadn't crossed my mind at all- never would I have predicted that I would be here now in the beginning of year 2007. That's life- with it's twist and turns and curveballs thrown at us which we never expect and which throw us off guard at times.
I remember being kept so busy with my final year dissertation in Neuroscience during the first few months. I had chosen to do a library based project, because I seriously suck at lab work. I actually quite enjoyed it, doing the research and writing out the drafts, even though I had to rush to make sure I had something to produce to my supervisor ( who is also my personal tutor) every week. I thought then that proceeding on to do a Masters and subsequently a PhD degree in Neuroscience would be my best bet, since I love doing research and writing ( and hate hate exams).
However, it was not meant to be.
As I said, life has it's way of throwing curve balls at us and catching us off guard. And yes, that was exactly what happened to me, when I wasn't allowed to graduate at the same time as my classmates because I failed 2 modules for my final year and didn't have sufficient credits. I'm still very thankful that I was permitted to resit them though, as final year students aren't usually allowed to resit any modules. I did squeeze through in the end, but that was the breaking point that finally made me decide that I've had enough of Neuroscience.
The month of August was undeniably the most hectic month of that year. Right after my resits, I had to return back to Malaysia immediately, as I was to register at International Medical University (IMU) just a few days after. I was still questioning my decision then. Orientation week was really hectic and tiring too. But I survived!
So here I am now in International Medical University (IMU), studying medicine and awaiting the beginning of Foundation 2......
and the beginning of the year 2007. I certainly am in no position to predict what awaits me in this year 2007, but I do hope that it will bring with it more joy, success and tranquility. I pray to God that he would give me the strength to face whatever challenges that I might face in this upcoming year, and may He grant me His peace and wisdom for me to overcome them and emerge triumphant in the end. I pray too that I'll grow stronger in my walk with Him this upcoming year.
I usually don't do New Year resolutions because I know that I'll end up not keeping to them, but I will do them this year anyways, just for fun.
My New Year Resolutions 2007:
1) To be persistent and consistent with my daily revision. ( Well, I've done quite a good job of this in 2006, so hopefully this continues)
2) To finally be able to score good results in university. I've been waiting soo long for this, this is loong overdue
3) To visit all, if not almost all the shopping malls in KL at least once by the end of the year ( so far I've visited Sungei Wang, MidValley, Carrefour and the latest addition Berjaya Times Square today ;)
4) To stop pestering my mum on the phone so much when I'm feeling stressed. Ok, I know I wouldn't be able to keep this one ;) She's my stress releasing outlet, you see
5) To be an even better housemate - I try my best to be nice to my housemates, and we get along great, but I think I might be a rather scary housemate when I am stressed. They're very used to me and my behaviour now though
6) I think this should be the most important one...........to be stronger in my faith and my walk with the Lord. I've to admit that I'm still learning to totally trust Him, especially since He has yet to show me His grace in my studies in the recent years. And because of that, I still put my studies first before Him. I still have a lot to learn, but I'll try.
So yeah.....I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a Happy New Year 2007!!!
God bless.
The summative assessment which was held right before we had our Christmas/New Year break wasn't so bad after all. I think it was mainly because we were all so uber hyped up about it and all...... But still it WAS tough. Single choice questions certainly aren't as easy as they seem. You see, for example for question 1 - the question requires you to identify the false statement from the 5 choices given. You are very sure that A and C are correct statements, but you aren't so sure about the rest. So yeah, it is hard.
The Christmas/New Year break was a rather relaxing time for me, just sleeping in, going out for dinners, catching up with my favourite programme, and all that jazz.
And before I know it, the year 2006 has gone, and 2007 has arrived.
For me, the year 2006 gave me both bitter and sweet memories. What started out to be yet another normal year turned out to be the year in which a major change occured in my life. At the beginning of 2006, International Medical University certainly hadn't crossed my mind at all- never would I have predicted that I would be here now in the beginning of year 2007. That's life- with it's twist and turns and curveballs thrown at us which we never expect and which throw us off guard at times.
I remember being kept so busy with my final year dissertation in Neuroscience during the first few months. I had chosen to do a library based project, because I seriously suck at lab work. I actually quite enjoyed it, doing the research and writing out the drafts, even though I had to rush to make sure I had something to produce to my supervisor ( who is also my personal tutor) every week. I thought then that proceeding on to do a Masters and subsequently a PhD degree in Neuroscience would be my best bet, since I love doing research and writing ( and hate hate exams).
However, it was not meant to be.
As I said, life has it's way of throwing curve balls at us and catching us off guard. And yes, that was exactly what happened to me, when I wasn't allowed to graduate at the same time as my classmates because I failed 2 modules for my final year and didn't have sufficient credits. I'm still very thankful that I was permitted to resit them though, as final year students aren't usually allowed to resit any modules. I did squeeze through in the end, but that was the breaking point that finally made me decide that I've had enough of Neuroscience.
The month of August was undeniably the most hectic month of that year. Right after my resits, I had to return back to Malaysia immediately, as I was to register at International Medical University (IMU) just a few days after. I was still questioning my decision then. Orientation week was really hectic and tiring too. But I survived!
So here I am now in International Medical University (IMU), studying medicine and awaiting the beginning of Foundation 2......
and the beginning of the year 2007. I certainly am in no position to predict what awaits me in this year 2007, but I do hope that it will bring with it more joy, success and tranquility. I pray to God that he would give me the strength to face whatever challenges that I might face in this upcoming year, and may He grant me His peace and wisdom for me to overcome them and emerge triumphant in the end. I pray too that I'll grow stronger in my walk with Him this upcoming year.
I usually don't do New Year resolutions because I know that I'll end up not keeping to them, but I will do them this year anyways, just for fun.
My New Year Resolutions 2007:
1) To be persistent and consistent with my daily revision. ( Well, I've done quite a good job of this in 2006, so hopefully this continues)
2) To finally be able to score good results in university. I've been waiting soo long for this, this is loong overdue
3) To visit all, if not almost all the shopping malls in KL at least once by the end of the year ( so far I've visited Sungei Wang, MidValley, Carrefour and the latest addition Berjaya Times Square today ;)
4) To stop pestering my mum on the phone so much when I'm feeling stressed. Ok, I know I wouldn't be able to keep this one ;) She's my stress releasing outlet, you see
5) To be an even better housemate - I try my best to be nice to my housemates, and we get along great, but I think I might be a rather scary housemate when I am stressed. They're very used to me and my behaviour now though
6) I think this should be the most important one...........to be stronger in my faith and my walk with the Lord. I've to admit that I'm still learning to totally trust Him, especially since He has yet to show me His grace in my studies in the recent years. And because of that, I still put my studies first before Him. I still have a lot to learn, but I'll try.
So yeah.....I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a Happy New Year 2007!!!
God bless.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
You know how sometimes when you feel certain emotions running through your mind , you just have to record them down in the spur of the moment before they slowly subside away? That's exactly what I am going to do now, record down exactly what I am feeling at the moment, write down exactly what is going through my head right now. And then look back maybe tomorrow or a few days later and laugh back at it and think about how silly I was to have these thoughts.
Let's get straight to the point. I'm feeling stressed out right now. I am not even halfway through reading up for the PBL presentation session tomorrow. Staying up really isn't a problem for me, but waking up early is. I've got CSU (Clinical Skills Unit) session tomorrow- which begins at friggin' 8 am in the morning. I know I shouldn't be complaining - they're many ppl who have to wake up much early than me, but I am NOT a morning person. It's still ok, if I could go home in the afternoon and rest and nap. But no..... it just had to be a full day tomorrow. From CSU, to lectures, to PBL presentation in the afternoon, to latin dance class in the evening- it's a wonder if I don't drop dead tomorrow. Especially since I predict I'm gonna stay up late again tonight.
I am almost a week behind in reading up on lectures- things just keep coming my way. What with PBL presentations now 2 times per week. Then there is this CPR theory exam which we've to sit for this coming Friday. Luckily it's not tomorrow.
I end up having not more than a few hours of sleep each time- since I just simply LOVE to work in the middle of the night and the wee hours of the morning, don't ask me why - and as a result, I'm sleep deprived. And that leads to my recent mood swings. I can feel absolutely fine one minute and just feel really down and moody and upset about a trivial thing the next minute. Imagine my housemates having to tolerate that every day.
I think God was really speaking to me when this morning at church while waiting to be ushered in, I just randomly picked up a book and flipped through it. And one sentence caught my eye and stood out for me. It read ' The lack of sleep can lead to moody swings'. Whoa....it's as if the sentence was especially directed towards me.
Small things can now aggravate me. Just my housemates happily chattering to each other, finding out that two of my old friends in Cardiff are now an item - even though I never had feelings for the guy before and just treat him like a friend - receiving a quarter of the number of testimonials I sent out, etc.
Sometimes, I believe I still do suffer from low self-esteem. I always think that other girls are much prettier, smarter, more hardworking, more obedient, more deserving than me. Sometimes maybe that's the reason why guys never seem to be interested in me :p k ....k....I'm just kidding, actually I think it's more likely due to the fact that I had sort of an adversion for guys when I was younger. Now I treat them like friends too.....but...seriously I don't forsee any guy wanting to be with me. There are many other good-looking girls out there, and I can't cook. No, actually I can, but for the most part I'm lazy to :p It's a different story altogether when I cook with my housemates.
Alright, I guess I'll stop my random blurbs here and continue on with my PBL. Muacks!
Ailing
p/s: kudos to those of you who actually read through this entire blog entry!
Let's get straight to the point. I'm feeling stressed out right now. I am not even halfway through reading up for the PBL presentation session tomorrow. Staying up really isn't a problem for me, but waking up early is. I've got CSU (Clinical Skills Unit) session tomorrow- which begins at friggin' 8 am in the morning. I know I shouldn't be complaining - they're many ppl who have to wake up much early than me, but I am NOT a morning person. It's still ok, if I could go home in the afternoon and rest and nap. But no..... it just had to be a full day tomorrow. From CSU, to lectures, to PBL presentation in the afternoon, to latin dance class in the evening- it's a wonder if I don't drop dead tomorrow. Especially since I predict I'm gonna stay up late again tonight.
I am almost a week behind in reading up on lectures- things just keep coming my way. What with PBL presentations now 2 times per week. Then there is this CPR theory exam which we've to sit for this coming Friday. Luckily it's not tomorrow.
I end up having not more than a few hours of sleep each time- since I just simply LOVE to work in the middle of the night and the wee hours of the morning, don't ask me why - and as a result, I'm sleep deprived. And that leads to my recent mood swings. I can feel absolutely fine one minute and just feel really down and moody and upset about a trivial thing the next minute. Imagine my housemates having to tolerate that every day.
I think God was really speaking to me when this morning at church while waiting to be ushered in, I just randomly picked up a book and flipped through it. And one sentence caught my eye and stood out for me. It read ' The lack of sleep can lead to moody swings'. Whoa....it's as if the sentence was especially directed towards me.
Small things can now aggravate me. Just my housemates happily chattering to each other, finding out that two of my old friends in Cardiff are now an item - even though I never had feelings for the guy before and just treat him like a friend - receiving a quarter of the number of testimonials I sent out, etc.
Sometimes, I believe I still do suffer from low self-esteem. I always think that other girls are much prettier, smarter, more hardworking, more obedient, more deserving than me. Sometimes maybe that's the reason why guys never seem to be interested in me :p k ....k....I'm just kidding, actually I think it's more likely due to the fact that I had sort of an adversion for guys when I was younger. Now I treat them like friends too.....but...seriously I don't forsee any guy wanting to be with me. There are many other good-looking girls out there, and I can't cook. No, actually I can, but for the most part I'm lazy to :p It's a different story altogether when I cook with my housemates.
Alright, I guess I'll stop my random blurbs here and continue on with my PBL. Muacks!
Ailing
p/s: kudos to those of you who actually read through this entire blog entry!
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Foundation 2
So yeah, we started our Foundation 2 course today. In many ways, I suddenly feel as if I'm already a Semester 2 student, although we aren't officially Semester 2 students yet until after the Chinese New Year break. You see, we are already starting to learn about stuff which usually Semester 2 students learn - such as General Pathology, Microbiology, Parasitology, Immunology and Pharmacology, and last but not least, we are starting Clinical Skills soon. I am most weary about Clinical Skills, but hopefully it wouldn't be so bad because this semester we are only going to be taught some basic stuff like history taking, measuring pulse, blood pressure and temperature. The main reason why we are now learning Sem 2 stuff when we are not really yet Sem 2 students is because students of the previous batches had their big End of Semester exams after Foundation 1, which would be Semester 1 for them, while we are only gonna have our big exams at the end of our Sem 2.
Today, I attended a talk on New Year Resolutions by one of the IMU lecturers. It was organized by the Christian Fellowship. The main reason I report this in my blog is because one message stood out for me - we must always look ahead and press ahead and never harp on our past mistakes or failures. Or else we will never move on.
Philippians Chapter 3 Verse 12-14 says :
'Not that I have already obtained all this or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet ot have taken hold of it. But one thing I do : Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead. I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.'
This is something which I'm really struggling to do. For example, everytime I sit for an exam, I would always try to recall back the paper and the questions asked, and then go home to check for the answers. And moan if I discovered that I've gotten them wrong. Also, the disappointments that I went through earlier on last year and also the 2 years before, I know that I've to learn to let go. I've to learn not to live in my past, but to press ahead towards the future. Only then can I succeed. This would not be as easy as it seems, I know. But I'll make it my 7th new year resolution to add on to the first 6 which I've mentioned in my previous blog.
Yet another new year resolution that I forgot to put down yesterday - to do more regular exercise. I've been really neglecting my exercise- preferring to take a nap in the evenings instead of going jogging or doing other forms of work out. Hopefully, with lectures starting at 10:30 am for the most part this term, ( instead of 8 am previously) I would be able to squeeze in more regular exercise from now on. I don't know how well will I be able to keep to this resolution, being the lazy bum I am :p
Today, I attended a talk on New Year Resolutions by one of the IMU lecturers. It was organized by the Christian Fellowship. The main reason I report this in my blog is because one message stood out for me - we must always look ahead and press ahead and never harp on our past mistakes or failures. Or else we will never move on.
Philippians Chapter 3 Verse 12-14 says :
'Not that I have already obtained all this or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet ot have taken hold of it. But one thing I do : Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead. I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.'
This is something which I'm really struggling to do. For example, everytime I sit for an exam, I would always try to recall back the paper and the questions asked, and then go home to check for the answers. And moan if I discovered that I've gotten them wrong. Also, the disappointments that I went through earlier on last year and also the 2 years before, I know that I've to learn to let go. I've to learn not to live in my past, but to press ahead towards the future. Only then can I succeed. This would not be as easy as it seems, I know. But I'll make it my 7th new year resolution to add on to the first 6 which I've mentioned in my previous blog.
Yet another new year resolution that I forgot to put down yesterday - to do more regular exercise. I've been really neglecting my exercise- preferring to take a nap in the evenings instead of going jogging or doing other forms of work out. Hopefully, with lectures starting at 10:30 am for the most part this term, ( instead of 8 am previously) I would be able to squeeze in more regular exercise from now on. I don't know how well will I be able to keep to this resolution, being the lazy bum I am :p
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Ok, it's confirmed. I'm gonna flop in the upcoming summative assessment next Friday. :/
I'm just simply not prepared at all for it. Somehow, just somehow, no matter how hard I try, the most I can do is catch up with daily lectures. I barely have time to go back and revise previous lectures which have been taught quite a while ago. Why oh why can't I go any faster? Sigh.
I know that most of my batchmates are already quite far into their revision, their revision is getting on well. Maybe it's because they study much faster than me. Why am I so damn slow?
I want a study leave! Now! Seriously. How are we supposed to finish studying and remember every single detail? The test being MCQ doesn't help either if I don't even have time to revise! Our Sem 2 seniors had a 2 week pure study leave for their 1st Summative Assessment. We, M206 people, need a study leave as well!!!!!!
As if the Dean, or the Head of Academic Affairs Department would read this and seriously consider this proposal/petition. Sigh.
I'm just simply not prepared at all for it. Somehow, just somehow, no matter how hard I try, the most I can do is catch up with daily lectures. I barely have time to go back and revise previous lectures which have been taught quite a while ago. Why oh why can't I go any faster? Sigh.
I know that most of my batchmates are already quite far into their revision, their revision is getting on well. Maybe it's because they study much faster than me. Why am I so damn slow?
I want a study leave! Now! Seriously. How are we supposed to finish studying and remember every single detail? The test being MCQ doesn't help either if I don't even have time to revise! Our Sem 2 seniors had a 2 week pure study leave for their 1st Summative Assessment. We, M206 people, need a study leave as well!!!!!!
As if the Dean, or the Head of Academic Affairs Department would read this and seriously consider this proposal/petition. Sigh.
Saturday, December 2, 2006
It's a waste of time.....
to go to church.
Well, that's exactly what my Singaporean friend said just now when we went grocery shopping at Carrefour. She had earlier on finally agreed follow me and one of my housemates to church again after missing out on more than one month of church services. But now, it looks like she's not going again, simply because it's a waste of her time.
Last week, her reply when I texted her, asking her whether she was going or not was ' Should I go or not? Don't have the heart to go to church :p . I've yet to finish studying the GI tract.'
Gosh, I don't know how to reply her. Sure, there are different types of people. Some people, like David and Naomi, our semester 2 seniors, still attend church service even when they're having an assessment the following day. Others think that it's time wasted, and better spent sleeping in or studying.
Oh God, what have I done to deserve such studious coursemates? They are all like really stressing out about the upcoming assessment. If she is stressing out even though she has already studied quite a lot for the assessment, how about me? I'll be dead meat!
It's people like this that makes me even more stressed than I already am. I try to appear cool, but deep inside I'm stressing out too about the assessment. I'm seriously not prepared for it, simply because I have to catch up with our daily lectures everyday. I thought that I'm trying my best, but looks like it's simply not enough compared to the effort put in by others. If I'm stressing myself out like this right now, I can't imagine what it'll be like in the future semesters, when we'll have tons more assessments to go through, and also those big exams which we really need to pass in order to proceed on to the next semester. What about during the clinical years when we'll receive much more pressure, going for ward rounds in the hospital (sometimes for the whole day) besides studying? What about during the housemanship year when we get bullied like crazy by the senior nurses and doctors? Oh, and must I go through all this anyways? Is this what life on earth is about, suffering and trying to withstand pressure because you need to earn your living?
I seriously feel like screaming out loud. Let my housemates think I'm crazy, I don't care :P
Well, that's exactly what my Singaporean friend said just now when we went grocery shopping at Carrefour. She had earlier on finally agreed follow me and one of my housemates to church again after missing out on more than one month of church services. But now, it looks like she's not going again, simply because it's a waste of her time.
Last week, her reply when I texted her, asking her whether she was going or not was ' Should I go or not? Don't have the heart to go to church :p . I've yet to finish studying the GI tract.'
Gosh, I don't know how to reply her. Sure, there are different types of people. Some people, like David and Naomi, our semester 2 seniors, still attend church service even when they're having an assessment the following day. Others think that it's time wasted, and better spent sleeping in or studying.
Oh God, what have I done to deserve such studious coursemates? They are all like really stressing out about the upcoming assessment. If she is stressing out even though she has already studied quite a lot for the assessment, how about me? I'll be dead meat!
It's people like this that makes me even more stressed than I already am. I try to appear cool, but deep inside I'm stressing out too about the assessment. I'm seriously not prepared for it, simply because I have to catch up with our daily lectures everyday. I thought that I'm trying my best, but looks like it's simply not enough compared to the effort put in by others. If I'm stressing myself out like this right now, I can't imagine what it'll be like in the future semesters, when we'll have tons more assessments to go through, and also those big exams which we really need to pass in order to proceed on to the next semester. What about during the clinical years when we'll receive much more pressure, going for ward rounds in the hospital (sometimes for the whole day) besides studying? What about during the housemanship year when we get bullied like crazy by the senior nurses and doctors? Oh, and must I go through all this anyways? Is this what life on earth is about, suffering and trying to withstand pressure because you need to earn your living?
I seriously feel like screaming out loud. Let my housemates think I'm crazy, I don't care :P
Friday, November 24, 2006
Behavioural Sciences Week Part Deux
So the Behavioural Science Week is officially over - much to the relief of most of my coursemates ( including my housemates). I, on the contrary, wish that it didn't end that fast, simply because I find it not as demanding compared to other weeks. What we learn in Behavioural Science week is mostly to do with logic and common sense. Well, we actually still have to study for the lectures, but I notice that everyone seems to be somewhat more concerned about the hard sciences part of medicine. People still carry the Marieb book around even though it is not one of the recommended books for this 2 weeks.
People are already stressing out about the upcoming summative assessment at the end of next month even though it is only an assessment. Everywhere I go, I see people study and study, and I've to admit that at times it stresses me out too. It makes me feel like I'm one of the laziest people in my class even though I try to stay up at night.
Back to the Behavioural Science Week, my patient interview was held yesterday. As I mentioned previously, it is also being assessed and contributes 2% of our total grades. I think mine went on ok. I was rather nervous at first, and was in a disarray. However, I went in and just strutted my stuff, doing the necessary introduction ( asking for name, age, occupation, etc.) and starting up a bit of a casual chat before I proceeded on to the actual part, which was to ask the patient about his problem. (It was a male patient btw). He was suffering from knee pain. I asked all the necessary questions like how long had it been going on for, have you done anything about it, what do you think might have caused it, can you describe the pain for me, does it cause you any problems, do you have any worries, etc. I am grateful that I got Paul Jambu as the assessing lecturer. He is one of the more lenient ones in marking among the 6 Behavioural Science lecturers.
Hera Lukman on the other hand, one of my housemates got her as the assessing lecturer, and apparently she is very strict in marking. Unlike the other lecturers, she looks at whether the student is successful in building rapport with the patient, and not just whether the student has managed to ask all the necessary questions.
My groupmates, who as I mentioned earlier are all Malays, are great people. Now, I'm glad that I got put into the same group as them. Maybe it's God's way of telling me that I need to open myself up more to these people as well.
Yeah, I guess that sort of wraps up my Behavioural Sciences week report- it's back to normal again next week, and back to the daily grind of reading lecture notes AND the Marieb book and looking at everyone around me working like mad and feeling lazy and inadequate again.
People are already stressing out about the upcoming summative assessment at the end of next month even though it is only an assessment. Everywhere I go, I see people study and study, and I've to admit that at times it stresses me out too. It makes me feel like I'm one of the laziest people in my class even though I try to stay up at night.
Back to the Behavioural Science Week, my patient interview was held yesterday. As I mentioned previously, it is also being assessed and contributes 2% of our total grades. I think mine went on ok. I was rather nervous at first, and was in a disarray. However, I went in and just strutted my stuff, doing the necessary introduction ( asking for name, age, occupation, etc.) and starting up a bit of a casual chat before I proceeded on to the actual part, which was to ask the patient about his problem. (It was a male patient btw). He was suffering from knee pain. I asked all the necessary questions like how long had it been going on for, have you done anything about it, what do you think might have caused it, can you describe the pain for me, does it cause you any problems, do you have any worries, etc. I am grateful that I got Paul Jambu as the assessing lecturer. He is one of the more lenient ones in marking among the 6 Behavioural Science lecturers.
Hera Lukman on the other hand, one of my housemates got her as the assessing lecturer, and apparently she is very strict in marking. Unlike the other lecturers, she looks at whether the student is successful in building rapport with the patient, and not just whether the student has managed to ask all the necessary questions.
My groupmates, who as I mentioned earlier are all Malays, are great people. Now, I'm glad that I got put into the same group as them. Maybe it's God's way of telling me that I need to open myself up more to these people as well.
Yeah, I guess that sort of wraps up my Behavioural Sciences week report- it's back to normal again next week, and back to the daily grind of reading lecture notes AND the Marieb book and looking at everyone around me working like mad and feeling lazy and inadequate again.
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