Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Ok, it's confirmed. I'm gonna flop in the upcoming summative assessment next Friday. :/
I'm just simply not prepared at all for it. Somehow, just somehow, no matter how hard I try, the most I can do is catch up with daily lectures. I barely have time to go back and revise previous lectures which have been taught quite a while ago. Why oh why can't I go any faster? Sigh.
I know that most of my batchmates are already quite far into their revision, their revision is getting on well. Maybe it's because they study much faster than me. Why am I so damn slow?
I want a study leave! Now! Seriously. How are we supposed to finish studying and remember every single detail? The test being MCQ doesn't help either if I don't even have time to revise! Our Sem 2 seniors had a 2 week pure study leave for their 1st Summative Assessment. We, M206 people, need a study leave as well!!!!!!
As if the Dean, or the Head of Academic Affairs Department would read this and seriously consider this proposal/petition. Sigh.

Saturday, December 2, 2006

It's a waste of time.....

to go to church.
Well, that's exactly what my Singaporean friend said just now when we went grocery shopping at Carrefour. She had earlier on finally agreed follow me and one of my housemates to church again after missing out on more than one month of church services. But now, it looks like she's not going again, simply because it's a waste of her time.
Last week, her reply when I texted her, asking her whether she was going or not was ' Should I go or not? Don't have the heart to go to church :p . I've yet to finish studying the GI tract.'
Gosh, I don't know how to reply her. Sure, there are different types of people. Some people, like David and Naomi, our semester 2 seniors, still attend church service even when they're having an assessment the following day. Others think that it's time wasted, and better spent sleeping in or studying.
Oh God, what have I done to deserve such studious coursemates? They are all like really stressing out about the upcoming assessment. If she is stressing out even though she has already studied quite a lot for the assessment, how about me? I'll be dead meat!
It's people like this that makes me even more stressed than I already am. I try to appear cool, but deep inside I'm stressing out too about the assessment. I'm seriously not prepared for it, simply because I have to catch up with our daily lectures everyday. I thought that I'm trying my best, but looks like it's simply not enough compared to the effort put in by others. If I'm stressing myself out like this right now, I can't imagine what it'll be like in the future semesters, when we'll have tons more assessments to go through, and also those big exams which we really need to pass in order to proceed on to the next semester. What about during the clinical years when we'll receive much more pressure, going for ward rounds in the hospital (sometimes for the whole day) besides studying? What about during the housemanship year when we get bullied like crazy by the senior nurses and doctors? Oh, and must I go through all this anyways? Is this what life on earth is about, suffering and trying to withstand pressure because you need to earn your living?
I seriously feel like screaming out loud. Let my housemates think I'm crazy, I don't care :P