Saturday, April 29, 2006

I want more support!

Current mood: crushed
I have a passion for writing, and I have this secret desire to go into a field related with writing someday. However, I feel like do not have enough support from the people around me or even people online.
I use the Pencil Box @ FGC as a starting ground to develop my writing skills. I just wish that more people would give me support and read or vote in my stories. Sometimes it seems as if people vote for the first few times and then just completely lose interest in it. :/
And my real life friends, when I show them the story 'A Girl Named Rebecca' which I completed a few months ago, well, they did discuss it at times, but at times I just wish that I could get more encouragement and support for my writing from those around me.
Maybe writing is not what God wants me to do, and I'm being rebellious here. Maybe I should just stick to boring Neuroscience instead.

Friday, April 28, 2006

I am feeling so down!

I'm feeling so down Current mood: tired
I was feeling so down for the entire day today.
First, I always stay up at night, because that's the only time that I can study, do stuff ,etc.
And so early this morning, when I was in the kitchen boiling water, one of my housemates came up to me and scolded me, saying that I was making too much noise every night and she can't sleep. She threatened to call the police if I continue making noise every night.
Wtf?!! What do I do everynight other than sit in front of my computer and study or go online? I guess it's because of the door, it has a tendency to slam when I close it. MEH. And I'm not the only person to live on the second floor of the house. But I can't say anything because I do tend to stay up late at night.
And to top it off, my mum called me up today to inform me that my grandmother passed away. :/

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

I hate Neuroscience!!

I hate Neuroscience!! Current mood: bored
I really hate the course that I am doing now. I have absolutely no passion whatsforever for it. And I am studying just for the heck of it. I can't imagine having to earn a living in the future setting up experimental apparatus in the lab( or rather trying to) and reading journals. I really can't. And I never can do well in my exams ( although somehow I made it to the final year). The lecture notes that are handed out to us are just very short, compact notes which contain very little information. And so we have to read as many journals as possible in order to do well in the exams, and remember all the facts like who wrote the journal and which year exactly did they conduct the experiment and write the journal. I find it impossible to remember every single thing.I don't know what to do. I feel overwhelmed right now, I don't think I'll be able to remember a single thing come exam time, which is what always happens to me each time anyways.I'm so over the course, I'm so over studying and exams. Although I really shouldn't be complaining, because everyone hates studying and exams anyways. :/