I wish for equality

I wish there is equality in this world... I wish there is no such thing as racial or sexual discrimination. I wish all humans are treated equally and given equal opportunities in life regardless or gender, race, status and religion. I wish that there is justice in this world. I wish people don't have to suffer just because of their gender, religion, beliefs or social status. I wish people don't get shot just because they are black, don't get labelled as a terrorist just because they are Muslim, get persecuted because they are Christian, get shunned by the society just because they are gay, or get sexually harrassed just because they are female. I wish every Malaysian has equal opportunity regardless of race and religion. I wish each and every person in this world has an equal shot at everything life has to offer.

Lord, I try

Lord- I try, I really try. I have to learn to smile even when I don’t feel like smiling and not to show it out when I’m feeling upset. I don’t know how to - but I have to . It’s easier said than done though. I pray for the strength to be able to do so in your name, Lord.

Lord, I’m just so weary. Not tired from work, but tired from having to put on a happy face and a happy mask all the time. I am only human, don’t expect me to not show any emotions. I am only human- I can be angry, upset too sometimes. Why can’t you get it? Also, I never knew that eating a bit of noodles ( which I haven’t eaten for so long) is considered as over eating

Mental Health Matters

If status and wealth can grant us immunity against depression, anxiety and other mental illness, we wouldn’t hear of celebrities committing suicide. Drepression doesn't discriminate.
Just saying. #EndTheStigma #DepressionIsReal #MentalHealthMatters

Stop the stigma against mental illness

You smile but inside you’re crying
You laugh but inside you’re hurting
You act all cheerful and jolly but inside you’re far from happy
You cannot show an upset face because you are supposed to be happy all the time
As you supposedly have everything that you want and need

You learn that there is no place in this world for sadness and depression
Because these are signs of weakness
So you learn to wear a mask everyday
Because who would like to see someone who looks sad?
You get chided when you look upset
Because you are supposed to be happy all the time

You find it so exhausting
To put on a tough and joyful facade all the time
Sometimes you wonder how long can you keep up with the act
On the outside, you are so lucky and have everything
But deep down inside , you feel so empty
However, you refuse to sink into the abysss
You keep on fighting , but you’re afraid that one day you’ll break down and can’t fight this daily battle anymore
You’ve no one to talk to, because nobody believes that someone as lucky as you should be depressed
You cry out to God, but all you get is silence
So you go on with life feeling like an empty shell

You hear the sad news of celebrities like Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain
And you realize that they also supposedly had everything going on for them
And yet they weren’t immune
So you pray that you wouldn’t end up like them as yet another statistic
Due to the lack of awareness of mental health worldwide

P.s Mental Health is as important as physical health. Stop the stigma against mental illness!

God's dear daughter

*trigger warning for sexual assault*

This is something I feel very passionately about- their voices need to be heard:

To all the rape victims out there who are never being heard:

To the little girl who was repeatedly raped by her father

To the teenager who was raped again and again by her stepfather

To the college girl who just wanted to go out for a drink with friends and got her drink spiked

To the young lady who went on a date with her boyfriend and he couldn't take no for an answer

To the woman who decided to take the shortcut home from work just that one day because it was getting late and she just wanted to go home after a tiring day at work- but never made it home in one piece

Nobody hears you as you wake up screaming in the middle of the night because after all these years you still see his face clearly whenever you close your eyes. You still can feel his alcohol reeked breath down your neck . You still remember the feeling of helplessness and hopelessness you felt as he overpowered you and pinned you underneath him.

And yet - you have to remain silent.

You cannot speak up, because even if you dare to do so- the entire system would be against you. You would be interrogated in court- and would be forced to see his face again, and relive the entire traumatic experience again in public. He'll get a minimal sentence, maybe 6 months in jail, but you, there's a part of you which had been rudely snatched away from you. A piece of you that you can never regain back, your dignity. You'll walk with an emotional scar your entire life.

But justice will favor him .

And you'll be blamed.

Because it's your fault that you are too attractive for your father/ stepfather to handle.

It's your fault you decide to go out for a drink.

It's your fault you went out on a date with a guy you just met.

It's your fault you decided to take the shortcut home that day.

It's always your fault.

So you decide to remain silent and bear the scars for the rest of your life.

Because nobody understands what you go through daily, the incredible strength it takes for you to go about your daily life with a brave smile on your face.

Because really, nobody would care or bother about what happened to you- until a similar thing happens to them- or to their mother, daughter, sister, friend.

Until then, stay strong my dear one- God is with you. God sees you as His precious daughter and he hears your silent cries and screams of anguish. He wipes away your tears, He collects your tears in a bottle.

He wants you to know that although it may seem so- you're not alone. He is with you.