The pause button...

I want to play the pause button on life now...
I am so not looking forward to semester 9!!! So weary about the final year as a medical student, because I know it's the toughest year ever., and there are so many challenges ahead...
Oh well, I'm tough, I'll get through this, like I've gotten through everything else..

Again and again...

I've managed to flunk my EOP yet again...despite of working so hard for the past few weeks...
I couldn't do the last few questions of the specialized postings OSPE.
All my efforts down the drain again...
All for nothing. Gah!!!

What a lousy way to end sem 8 :(

I forgive

I forgive her for laughing openly at me when I did something embarrasing at the JBLT on Tuesday.
I forgive them for letting me find the case of the unconcscious patient all on my own, take down the notes, write the powerpoint and asking me to present it as well...
I forgive them for always disappearing with their respective boyfriends (during the weekends) and never bothering to ask me whether I've eaten or not

GMH

I never give up no matter what the circumstances.
I never say no no matter how tired and drained I am.
I never quit even when the going gets tough.
When I stumble and fall, I get up again.
I encourage others.

I GMH ( Give Myself Hope).

Careless....

I know that I'm clumsy and careless it's a well established fact. The thing I don't know is....whether it is due to my Turner's Syndrome (who will ever tell me?) or due to my own lack of care for things around me... I tend to misplace things, I always do things in a mess .I know I need to learn to be more careful..to be more efficient, but no matter how hard I try, it's always the same....maybe I should try harder?
I don't want my carelessness to cause a life when I'm working as a doctor in the future... actually, why did I choose this career path in the first place? Well, it's not like I chose it, I have always wanted to become a journalist and eventually a writer....but of course no one will support me in that path. So now I'm stuck with this...wonder how many lives will I cost by my own carelessneess? And please...do not say be more careful....of course I know very well I have to be more careful!!

Terrible

I feel terrible right now...I don't know, I just woke up feeling like this....Lord, I'm sorry for abandoning You again today and not going to church again...I dunno, I just....don't have much faith left in me...I've no motivation now to come close to You...plese draw me closer to You, Lord...

Lonely.....

I'm feeling so lonely right now....both my housemates are spending the weekends with their respective boyfriends again...and here I am, alone again.... :/
Ah well, I'll just concentrate on studying for my exam next week then....

The small blessings that count...

I have been secretly waiting for the day someone will give me flowers.
Little did I know that my wait ended today!
I got a sunflower :D

Although it's not from a guy, and it's just a friendly gesture to cheer my day up, but thank you so much Pam!! :) You rock and made my day.
Sunflowers do indeed brighten one's day...

This is life, isn't it? When you comfort others and encourage them during their times of trial- but when your time of trial comes, nobody is there for you....