There is no use crying over spilt milk.

What is done is done.

No use regretting over what is done and what should've been done.

Should have, could have...

I am disappointed in myself.

But all I can do now is to look forward and start preparing for EOS5.

I never learn

It's that time of the semester again.......everyone including me begin slogging for the upcoming summative exams. We have not 2, but 3 systems to cover this time! So much to study, so little time.

I don't feel confident at all for this exam. I still have a lot to study.

And who is to be blamed? Me myself, of course. I never learn.
Everytime, the same thing happens. The exams are just around the corner, and I start panicking and stressing out about the amount of revision I have left to cover. I see everyone else feeling calm and prepared, and I start telling myself- they have studied a lot already and they are confident.

Then the exam day arrives- I barely scrap through.

And I tell myself that I would turn over a new leaf and start preparing early for the next exam so that the same thing doesn't happen again.

But somehow, I just can't find the motivation in me to start revision for exams earlier. Keeping up with daily lecture notes - no problem for me, but revising before an exam....I just can't seem to start. I don't know why.

Then, the next exam draws near, and I start panicking again and wondering why I didn't start my revision earlier.

The exact same thing happens again.

It is like a vicious cycle that I need to break out of.

Lord help me!!


*throws hands up in the air exasperatedly


p.s. I fried some fish today :)

How are you?

I never realized that I ask the sentence 'How are you' all the time, until a friend of mine pointed it out.

I thought it is just a normal question.....especially when I don't know what else to talk to the person about. When I feel like I have to say something- but the other person isn't cooperating as usual by just keeping silent- that's all I have in mind to ask.
It's just a reflex question. Don't feel intimidated by it- it's just my poor attempt at trying to be friendly.

I try, you know, I really do.

And some random stuff:

1) I have trouble in finding a partner for GP posting. Will think about it after the exams.

2) I got Literature for selectives! It was my first choice

3) Thank you for calling me for advice. :) It's my great pleasure to comfort you over the phone

4) Our PBL group dynamics have improved tremendously since we first started out. Keep it up, guys!

5) One of my PBL groupmates was using staying up to watch the Germany vs Portugal Euro 2008 match as an excuse for not contributing much to the PBL discussion today.
That triggered me to stay up to watch the second quarterfinal....Croatia vs Turkey tonight.
Omg, what the..... It was such a boring match......and then 2 minutes before the end of extra time, Croatia scored. And barely a minute after that.....Turkey equalized... Let's see how which team will win the penalty shootouts.... eta : Turkey is through.... Sucks to be Croatia, lol!

6) One more week left!!!!! Arrrghhhh........

Happy Father's Day

I would just like to take the opportunity to say Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there.

True, there are many who are lucky to have such loving and caring fathers who they can depend on for financial and emotional support. However, there are others who never experienced a father's love....due to death, divorce, or simply because of the lack of emotions from the father's part. There are many children- especially in this part of the world, who just long for their father's to hug them, to show them love and to encourage them.

Even though I never experienced a Father's love when I was younger, I'm glad to have found it now.

Thank you.....Uncle David for finally letting me experience a father's love. Thank you for treating me like your own daughter. I really appreciate it :)

And thank you God that I have a heavenly Father in you.

I have to learn to let go....of my hurts from the past..... and open up. Let God cleanse me of all my past sorrows.

this picture makes me sad....:( Why did he have to leave?

Stressed!!

I'm so darn stressed out right now!

The Endocrine, Repro and Renal exams are just 2 weeks away, and I still have a lot of revision to cover!! Not to mention...Renal Physiology is the hardest to grasp the concept. Everyone around me is studying like mad. I do study, but somehow I don't feel like I put in much effort at all. I get stressed when I see everyone studying. And I end up staying up late to compensate. And this results in me getting less sleep. And thus my dizziness on Friday evening.

The worst thing is...everytime I step out of my room, I would see my two housemates busy studying outside at the living area. They are so hardworking- they work day and night! This just puts more stress/pressure on me. I just feel like I'm so lazy compared to them!
I'm not the type that can handle stress or pressure well.

I cannot blame them though- they study outside because they want to conserve electricity.
So everytime I walk out of the room, I pretend not to notice them :P

I know it's a small matter for most people, but I just can't tolerate seeing others study so hard. Makes me feel inefficient as a student, like I don't study as much :/ I just can't help comparing myself to others and making myself feel stressed and belittled as a result.

*refers to her previous post on ways to destress herself*

I cannot watch anymore 'Lost' episodes!! I just watched 'Tabula Rasa' the very first flashback episode ever of 'Lost' on Friday night.

How I destress

Want to know the ways in which I relieve stress? (this is updated- meaning these are the most current methods I'm using. Past methods are now considered irrelevant ;) )

1. Listening to Christian songs (the songs that Eunice kindly burned into a CD for me. I've been replaying them over and over again. There are all my favourite songs!)

2. Talking to others. I have to be careful not to irritate others by my complaining of how stressed I am. :P I know others are in the same situation as me and are stressed too!

3. Popping in the 'Lost' Season 1 DVD. Ok- this is NOT a good example, so do not follow!
When I feel like I cannot take it anymore, I just pop one of the season 1 Lost DVDs and watch one episode, while studying at the same time. It is nice reliving those good old days in season 1, when the survivors still harbored hope of rescue, when the only threats on the island were Smokey and the Polar Bear. (No mention of The Others or the Freighties then). And the squabbles among the Survivors were just due to some silly misunderstanding or miscommunication among them. How things have changed since then! And how characters like Sun and Sawyer have evolved into the people they are now! (Sun into the corporate raider in the future and Sawyer into the hero). Loved the Jack and Kate dynamics back then too. And miss Boone, Shannon and Charlie :(
Oh- it does help me destress. The magic of the trade is....only allow yourself to watch one episode each time you do so.



The first scene ever of 'Lost'- Jack awaking in the middle of the jungle right after the crash

Arrrgggghhh....

PBL 3. As if PBL 1 and 2 aren't enough.

72 slides of P.Kumar's lecture notes.

Only 2 and a half more weeks left to the Endocrine, Repro and Renal exams.

And I have barely started. (Don't ask me why. I just never learn!)

ARrggghh....!!!!!