Now is a time of reflection, renewal and self-evaluation for me.
I learn things about myself that I never realized before.
Now, if only those things are positive.
But like any other human, I'm not perfect.
And I have to try to improve myself.
p.s. pics of Sunway pyramid= hopefully up within the next few days?
Sunday, November 11, 2007
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Hey....just a quick update to let you readers know that the blogger is feeling better now.....full and satisfied after a trip to Pasar Malam which took up the entire night. There's no better feeling than having random stuff like chicken drumstick, meatballs, wanton mee, icecream and mango drinks in your tummy.
I still have these mood swings which seem to overtake me these past few days, and feel a little frustrated about certain trivial things, but other than that, I'm fine.
I still have these mood swings which seem to overtake me these past few days, and feel a little frustrated about certain trivial things, but other than that, I'm fine.
Monday, November 5, 2007
Ashamed...
Omg- today has to be the worst day ever.
Especially this morning, I just feel like hiding myself in the room, just hiding myself away from the whole world. That is how embarrassed and worthless I felt this morning.
Now I get it, I am just a stupid, useless little being, who doesn't even know how to double check on things properly, someone who just takes things for granted.
I should be ashamed of myself.
Especially this morning, I just feel like hiding myself in the room, just hiding myself away from the whole world. That is how embarrassed and worthless I felt this morning.
Now I get it, I am just a stupid, useless little being, who doesn't even know how to double check on things properly, someone who just takes things for granted.
I should be ashamed of myself.
Sunday, November 4, 2007
Frustrated!!
I'm just uber frustrated with myself right now.
Despite the fact that we had long weekends 2 weeks in a row.....I can't manage to finish my Haemato notes. And tomorrow GI is starting already. ( Can you tell that I'm feeling really frustrated about this?)
What can I blame it on? OSCE practises? Things just cropping up one by one? I only can recall clearly this weekend.....Friday night, went to M206 Raya open house. Saturday, went for a 5 hour MUET exam which began early in the morning, and went straight to Carrefour for grocery shopping. Come night, I was just completely exhausted. Today- had to literally drag myself out of bed for church in the morning and then replacement cell group in the afternoon.
And I ended up being in a crappy mood for almost the entire day. Could blame it on lack of sleep, hah. I admit that I haven't been sleeping well lately. I'm a night person and just love to study at night, and combine this with the fact that all my activities the following day are usually held in the morning. I only have myself to blame for this. I know I should learn to readjust my timetable/schedule, but I always fail to do so. And in the end, I suffer the consequences when I feel/look like crap in the day and give others an impression that I'm always stressed.
And I'm sorry for everything that I've done wrong to anyone. I'm sorry for making anyone feel upset with me, I really didn't mean it.
Urgent notice:
Need seniors to guide me for mock OSCE!! Any senior available next week ( I know that Repro and CNS exams are coming up very soon- and that Repro exam is on Wednesday ) do contact me yea!! ;)
Despite the fact that we had long weekends 2 weeks in a row.....I can't manage to finish my Haemato notes. And tomorrow GI is starting already. ( Can you tell that I'm feeling really frustrated about this?)
What can I blame it on? OSCE practises? Things just cropping up one by one? I only can recall clearly this weekend.....Friday night, went to M206 Raya open house. Saturday, went for a 5 hour MUET exam which began early in the morning, and went straight to Carrefour for grocery shopping. Come night, I was just completely exhausted. Today- had to literally drag myself out of bed for church in the morning and then replacement cell group in the afternoon.
And I ended up being in a crappy mood for almost the entire day. Could blame it on lack of sleep, hah. I admit that I haven't been sleeping well lately. I'm a night person and just love to study at night, and combine this with the fact that all my activities the following day are usually held in the morning. I only have myself to blame for this. I know I should learn to readjust my timetable/schedule, but I always fail to do so. And in the end, I suffer the consequences when I feel/look like crap in the day and give others an impression that I'm always stressed.
And I'm sorry for everything that I've done wrong to anyone. I'm sorry for making anyone feel upset with me, I really didn't mean it.
Urgent notice:
Need seniors to guide me for mock OSCE!! Any senior available next week ( I know that Repro and CNS exams are coming up very soon- and that Repro exam is on Wednesday ) do contact me yea!! ;)
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
This week has been busy so far for me.....
Monday: lectures, PBL afternoon , choir practice and then performance at night
Tuesday: lectures, OSCE practice in afternoon, church prayer meeting at night
Today: OSCE practice early in the morning, CG meeting, case study, Haemato lab, PBL2 session (which I went through without any PBL notes!! :eek Turned out I left my PBL notes in the CSU room in the morning) *hits head Luckily I still had a set of lecture notes with me and some memory about what I read last night
I really hope to have a more relaxing day tomorrow and on Friday. 10:30 tomorrow, OSCE practice again.
Monday: lectures, PBL afternoon , choir practice and then performance at night
Tuesday: lectures, OSCE practice in afternoon, church prayer meeting at night
Today: OSCE practice early in the morning, CG meeting, case study, Haemato lab, PBL2 session (which I went through without any PBL notes!! :eek Turned out I left my PBL notes in the CSU room in the morning) *hits head Luckily I still had a set of lecture notes with me and some memory about what I read last night
I really hope to have a more relaxing day tomorrow and on Friday. 10:30 tomorrow, OSCE practice again.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Earning Money
Today, I had the opportunity to earn some money.
How- you may ask.
Well, by becoming a tour guide for IMU's Open day.
This was the first time I am doing this ever since I step foot into IMU- so I admit that I was a bit nervous at first.
Initially, it was rather boring just standing there and waiting for the visitors to come out of the Auditorium. And when they finally did, nobody seemed interested in having a tour.
But finally, just as I was about to go home, I decided to approach one lady who was standing outside the Audi and asked her whether she would be interested in joining a tour. And she said yes.
So I became the tour guide for the small family ( mother, daughter (who is in Secondary 4 and is already interested in studying medicine in IMU) and son who seems barely older than 5.)
The mother asked me a lot of questions- both about IMU and about medicine in general. Luckily I could answer all her questions seemingly confidently although I wasn't that confident on the inside. ( I not a very confident person so maybe this practice would build my confidence and self-esteem up). We managed to tour the top 2 floors- until we reached the Medical Musuem. And when the family stepped foot into the MMS.....they were so intrigued by it that they studied every single model in detail and asked a lot of questions about the models :P And the son decided to pry apart every component of the brain model, and the poor model ended up in an absolute mess. And I didn't know how to fix it.
But yeah, it was a pretty good experience for me.
On a side note- I confirmed today that my Haemoglobin (Hb) levels were very low after doing the Hb test. Maybe that explains the anaemia?
How- you may ask.
Well, by becoming a tour guide for IMU's Open day.
This was the first time I am doing this ever since I step foot into IMU- so I admit that I was a bit nervous at first.
Initially, it was rather boring just standing there and waiting for the visitors to come out of the Auditorium. And when they finally did, nobody seemed interested in having a tour.
But finally, just as I was about to go home, I decided to approach one lady who was standing outside the Audi and asked her whether she would be interested in joining a tour. And she said yes.
So I became the tour guide for the small family ( mother, daughter (who is in Secondary 4 and is already interested in studying medicine in IMU) and son who seems barely older than 5.)
The mother asked me a lot of questions- both about IMU and about medicine in general. Luckily I could answer all her questions seemingly confidently although I wasn't that confident on the inside. ( I not a very confident person so maybe this practice would build my confidence and self-esteem up). We managed to tour the top 2 floors- until we reached the Medical Musuem. And when the family stepped foot into the MMS.....they were so intrigued by it that they studied every single model in detail and asked a lot of questions about the models :P And the son decided to pry apart every component of the brain model, and the poor model ended up in an absolute mess. And I didn't know how to fix it.
But yeah, it was a pretty good experience for me.
On a side note- I confirmed today that my Haemoglobin (Hb) levels were very low after doing the Hb test. Maybe that explains the anaemia?
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Fear
During CG earlier this week, we were asked a question ' What do we fear the most? What are our innermost fears?'
Of course different people would have different fears. For example, some people are afraid of death, others are afraid of change, others are afraid of uncertainty, etc.
For me, I think my innermost fear is the fear of losing a loved one. And I only have one- my mum. I really can't imagine what I would do without her.
Other fears for me include fear of failing (I admit that I'm a rather 'kiasu' type of person ), fear of uncertainty. Talking about fear of uncertainty, I remember how I felt when I first left home to study in college. And the first time I left home to go overseas, far far away from the comfort of home. And having to meet new people, embrace a new culture, adapt to a new lifestyle, etc. I was afraid. I didn't know what the future held for me, whether I would make friends and settle down and cope easily or not. Will I be able to graduate?
The exact same thing applies to IMU right now.
I think the worst fear ever is the fear of the unknown. That's why people are afraid of ghosts and spirits and stuff. And that's why people are afraid of change, afraid of moving to a new place. You don't know what's going to happen next. The best thing you can do is to take it one step at a time.
And let God guide you step by step.
Of course different people would have different fears. For example, some people are afraid of death, others are afraid of change, others are afraid of uncertainty, etc.
For me, I think my innermost fear is the fear of losing a loved one. And I only have one- my mum. I really can't imagine what I would do without her.
Other fears for me include fear of failing (I admit that I'm a rather 'kiasu' type of person ), fear of uncertainty. Talking about fear of uncertainty, I remember how I felt when I first left home to study in college. And the first time I left home to go overseas, far far away from the comfort of home. And having to meet new people, embrace a new culture, adapt to a new lifestyle, etc. I was afraid. I didn't know what the future held for me, whether I would make friends and settle down and cope easily or not. Will I be able to graduate?
The exact same thing applies to IMU right now.
I think the worst fear ever is the fear of the unknown. That's why people are afraid of ghosts and spirits and stuff. And that's why people are afraid of change, afraid of moving to a new place. You don't know what's going to happen next. The best thing you can do is to take it one step at a time.
And let God guide you step by step.
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