Urrghhh....a very frustrating thing happened to me. Can you guess what it is?
Yes....my precious laptop just completely shutdown and now I cannot even access Microsoft Windows. Which means that....I practically cannot do anything on my laptop anymore.
My Nursing Week report, which I had carefully typed out a couple of nights ago....and didn't bother to save in my pendrive.....gone....MARA report which I have to attach to the loan application form....gone....
Arrrghhhh!!! *cries*
And now I am in the E-lab, having to retype everything again. This teaches me an important lesson.....save all my documents in my pendrive immediately, just in case something occurs out of the blue to my laptop. My precious time typing out these things for the past few days- which could've been well-spent on revising for the upcoming assessment- all wasted. :/
All the Survivor and Apprentice episodes that I've downloaded from tvtorrents over these past couple of months ( I have yet to find the time to sit down at watch them- was planning to do so during the holidays) all GONE!!! All the electricity wasted on leaving the laptop on while downloading....gone.... ( I know these aren't important stuff, but when you have saved all these downloaded episodes onto your computer and suddenly you discover that you have to download them all over again....it's frustrating)
Gone....gone....gone....
Gah!!!
Now the only option I have is to bring the laptop to Low Yat plaza or somewhere else to service it. Hopefully cousin Mervin and his gang of friends can help me to bring it there this weekend.
You know the feeling....when something that is so integral in your life is just suddenly snatched away from you without prior warning? You feel hopeless, lost... That is human nature...we wouldn't appreciate the luxuries and blessings we have in our daily lives, and take it for granted until it is taken away from us. Then we miss the thing like crazy. The same goes to the people around us- our friends and family. We never tend to appreciate them until one day....fate takes them away from us. Then we weep for just one more day....just one more moment to spend with them.
Appreciate whatever you have now peeps! Before it is taken away from you!
p/s: could it be due to a virus? But I usually visit only safe websites like my email and friendster and FGC. As for the downloads....I have been downloading for quite some time ever since I was in Cardiff, and nothing like this ever happened before. Latent infection anyone? ;)
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
CNY holidays
The Chinese New Year holidays went by so fast....too fast for my liking.
Hmm.....let's try to recall how exactly I spent the holidays...
Basically, I didn't go back to Kuching this holidays. Instead, I stayed back here in Vista B1, and my entire family came over instead. By my family I mean my mum, her best friend Uncle David, and his 2 daughters (who are also my good friends) and his elder daughter's boyfriend. Kkk...don't give me that puzzled look, I know it's a very complicated family...
Tze Chien( Uncle David's younger daughter) came over on Friday- managed to catch up with housemate Li Cin ( who was spotting a new permed hairdo) in SungeiWang.
Saturday and Sunday- lazy days spent at home or at Carrefour. Li Cin left to Genting with her family. I was down with a bad cold, took some medication which made me feel very drowzy. So much for being able to catch up on work. Sigh.
Monday- went to MidValley with TzeChien. I seriously suck at bowling. Couldn't even knock down a SINGLE pin after umpteen tries. Mum and Uncle David and Angel and her boyfriend arrived at night... bringing with them a whole box of goodies. Yummm....
Tuesday- finally went to KLCC- for the whole day. Mum wasn't feeling that well. Had to visit the biggest bookstore ever on the top floor- spent time browsing through books and contemplating on whether to buy them or not- RM30 over for a book which you read once then just put it aside....dunno whether it's worth it or not. How I wish there are second hand bookstores here in Malaysia! In UK, we could get second hand books anywhere for just 1 pound or even less.
Wednesday- Genting Highlands- here we come! I can't recall when was the last time I've been there. Right after my IB exam, I think. Anyways, we tried out some rides in the Outdoor Theme Park- some of them were too scary for me. Grrr....I wasn't allowed into the Circuit ride because I didn't reach the minimum height of 150cm. And when we went to the bumper car ride after that- I was way above the maximum height for that ride. Wth? Funniest ride was the ancient train ride when mum and I kept on bumping hard into a mother and her young son who were riding in front of us. The little boy wasn't very amused by that.
Thursday- Shopped at Sungei Wang and Low Yat Plaza for the whole day. Spent a lot of time browsing from one shoe shop to another. Damn, I never realized how tiring it is to search for shoes for me! Most shoe shops only have shoes that are of size 5 and above, and I'm a size 3. Vincci is the only shoe shop that sells adult shoes which cater for my feet size. I love you Vincci!
Friday- family went to Sungei Wang again. I decided to be a good girl- go me- and stayed at home to study. That night, decided to bring my health conscious mum to the outdoor gym at the nearby park. Tried out every single equipment available there. Right after, as I had not enough of exercise, I just had to jog around the lake without stopping. As a result, I suffered from severe fatigue and could barely even walk home and had to stop for rest many times before finally reaching home. Silly me. Shouldn't do such strenous exercise at one go when I seldom exercise during normal days. (But why both times I participated in the Treasure Hunt event during orientation I seemed fine even though I had to run around the entire park? Hmm....)
Oh and did I mention about the swimming pool at Vista B? Somehow my family members love and cherish the pool so much that they make it a point to go down to splash at the pool every night. It's my pleasure to accompany them. And here I am, with the pool within a few minutes walking distance from my place- and yet I seldom utilize it.
They went back during the weekend.
Alright then, that's it for my holiday roundup. Boring, exciting- it's up to you to decide. But what I can tell you is that - yep it had been a superb and enjoyable holiday! Only thing is that I wish it had been a longer holiday ( as usual).
p.s. Stay tuned for Nursing Week and Orientation Week M1/07 update. ;)
Hmm.....let's try to recall how exactly I spent the holidays...
Basically, I didn't go back to Kuching this holidays. Instead, I stayed back here in Vista B1, and my entire family came over instead. By my family I mean my mum, her best friend Uncle David, and his 2 daughters (who are also my good friends) and his elder daughter's boyfriend. Kkk...don't give me that puzzled look, I know it's a very complicated family...
Tze Chien( Uncle David's younger daughter) came over on Friday- managed to catch up with housemate Li Cin ( who was spotting a new permed hairdo) in SungeiWang.
Saturday and Sunday- lazy days spent at home or at Carrefour. Li Cin left to Genting with her family. I was down with a bad cold, took some medication which made me feel very drowzy. So much for being able to catch up on work. Sigh.
Monday- went to MidValley with TzeChien. I seriously suck at bowling. Couldn't even knock down a SINGLE pin after umpteen tries. Mum and Uncle David and Angel and her boyfriend arrived at night... bringing with them a whole box of goodies. Yummm....
Tuesday- finally went to KLCC- for the whole day. Mum wasn't feeling that well. Had to visit the biggest bookstore ever on the top floor- spent time browsing through books and contemplating on whether to buy them or not- RM30 over for a book which you read once then just put it aside....dunno whether it's worth it or not. How I wish there are second hand bookstores here in Malaysia! In UK, we could get second hand books anywhere for just 1 pound or even less.
Wednesday- Genting Highlands- here we come! I can't recall when was the last time I've been there. Right after my IB exam, I think. Anyways, we tried out some rides in the Outdoor Theme Park- some of them were too scary for me. Grrr....I wasn't allowed into the Circuit ride because I didn't reach the minimum height of 150cm. And when we went to the bumper car ride after that- I was way above the maximum height for that ride. Wth? Funniest ride was the ancient train ride when mum and I kept on bumping hard into a mother and her young son who were riding in front of us. The little boy wasn't very amused by that.
Thursday- Shopped at Sungei Wang and Low Yat Plaza for the whole day. Spent a lot of time browsing from one shoe shop to another. Damn, I never realized how tiring it is to search for shoes for me! Most shoe shops only have shoes that are of size 5 and above, and I'm a size 3. Vincci is the only shoe shop that sells adult shoes which cater for my feet size. I love you Vincci!
Friday- family went to Sungei Wang again. I decided to be a good girl- go me- and stayed at home to study. That night, decided to bring my health conscious mum to the outdoor gym at the nearby park. Tried out every single equipment available there. Right after, as I had not enough of exercise, I just had to jog around the lake without stopping. As a result, I suffered from severe fatigue and could barely even walk home and had to stop for rest many times before finally reaching home. Silly me. Shouldn't do such strenous exercise at one go when I seldom exercise during normal days. (But why both times I participated in the Treasure Hunt event during orientation I seemed fine even though I had to run around the entire park? Hmm....)
Oh and did I mention about the swimming pool at Vista B? Somehow my family members love and cherish the pool so much that they make it a point to go down to splash at the pool every night. It's my pleasure to accompany them. And here I am, with the pool within a few minutes walking distance from my place- and yet I seldom utilize it.
They went back during the weekend.
Alright then, that's it for my holiday roundup. Boring, exciting- it's up to you to decide. But what I can tell you is that - yep it had been a superb and enjoyable holiday! Only thing is that I wish it had been a longer holiday ( as usual).
p.s. Stay tuned for Nursing Week and Orientation Week M1/07 update. ;)
I feel horrible....
Wow, I feel downright down and depressed today. Well, actually I've felt this way ever since last night.
Last night, I've created a brand new record for myself. I actually quarrelled with my housemate- and I mean really quarrelled. You see, I was too tired and overslept until about 8 in the evening. And when I woke up, I was such in a daze. She came back much later than usual and nope, as I was sleeping, no rice ready yet. Anyways that's not the point. As it was late, after Aida, Jenny and gang left, I was in no mood to eat. Just wanted to settle down and study. So I playfully told her that no it's ok, I don't really feel like eating much, I'm on a diet. And I think she took it the wrong way and was rather offended and suddenly said ' I don't know how much you want to eat.' while putting down the scooping spoon. I suddenly felt upset as well, and retorted back 'Don't you know what I mean when I say just a bit of rice?'
Meh. Anyways, it's all over and done with now. She's such a wonderful housemate and I don't know how I would cope without her around. I can't believe how bad I can treat such a good housemate. *knocks head repeatedly* Time and time again I tell myself to never let my temper get the better of me especially when I am stressed, but always to no avail. Why can't I control my stress and temper better? And everytime after that, I would feel really bad and upset and apologize repeatedly. What is the use if it has already happened?
I wish I can be a better person. Other people who are younger than me are so much better at coping with stress and anger than me.
And as I have said in an earlier blog and in my Friendster profile, I have serious issues regarding my self-esteem. Always had issues with this aspect of myself ever since Lower Secondary School. Was never popular in class- I was the class nerd ok- was the only child, never bothered to socialize with classmates as I was much more concerned about my grades and pleasing my mum then. Also the snobbish reputation of students from my school ( I came from an International School) didn't help either. I'm glad to say that I think I've improved leaps and bounds in socializing with people now- but at times it still comes back to haunt me- like when I'm with a group of people, or when I'm alone with someone and I ...just simply don't know what to say. My sense of humour ( or lack thereof) certainly doesn't help either. I really envy people who are naturals at cracking jokes and keeping people entertained. The only strong point in my character that I think I have is kindness and tenderness. But then again...there are many kind people in this world....some much more so than me. Meh. No, I'm not fishing for compliments at all- I just seriously have a low self-esteem and it's not healthy.
And yes, I feel underappreciated all the time. I don't know why. Even when I try to be nice to people, I don't know whether people appreciate it or not. It's like there's nothing special about me, I've nothing special to offer to others. :/ I know for a fact that when I leave this world- the only person who would really miss me is my mum. But then again she is all that really matters to me in this world right?
Gah, I don't know. I'm like feeling so messed up right now. Foundation 2 assessment is only slightly more than 2 weeks away, and I'm seriously not prepared for it. I thought that during the CNY holidays and Nursing Week last week, I can do some serious catching up. But unfortunately, it was not to be. CNY hols- spent time shopping and going places with family. Did read up on some notes, but not as many as I would've liked to. Last week- hospital visits were very tiring (not to mention the report to hand in on Friday as well). Plus the PBL on Monday which caused me to stay up the whole night ( 2 PBL triggers to do over the weekend man!) and M1/07 orientation, and throw in the CPR practical exam which took up my entire Saturday, my revision plan went down the drain again.
Arrrgghhhh......
p/s: Would blog in detail about CNY holidays and Nursing week in another blog!
p.p.s... Why do certain people pretend not to notice me when they walk past me in school? Or is it the other way round? :/
p.p.p.s. I have this sudden strong urge to start serious blogging ( thanks Zi Yun!) Any tips or advise on how to start is very much appreciated :) TiA
Last night, I've created a brand new record for myself. I actually quarrelled with my housemate- and I mean really quarrelled. You see, I was too tired and overslept until about 8 in the evening. And when I woke up, I was such in a daze. She came back much later than usual and nope, as I was sleeping, no rice ready yet. Anyways that's not the point. As it was late, after Aida, Jenny and gang left, I was in no mood to eat. Just wanted to settle down and study. So I playfully told her that no it's ok, I don't really feel like eating much, I'm on a diet. And I think she took it the wrong way and was rather offended and suddenly said ' I don't know how much you want to eat.' while putting down the scooping spoon. I suddenly felt upset as well, and retorted back 'Don't you know what I mean when I say just a bit of rice?'
Meh. Anyways, it's all over and done with now. She's such a wonderful housemate and I don't know how I would cope without her around. I can't believe how bad I can treat such a good housemate. *knocks head repeatedly* Time and time again I tell myself to never let my temper get the better of me especially when I am stressed, but always to no avail. Why can't I control my stress and temper better? And everytime after that, I would feel really bad and upset and apologize repeatedly. What is the use if it has already happened?
I wish I can be a better person. Other people who are younger than me are so much better at coping with stress and anger than me.
And as I have said in an earlier blog and in my Friendster profile, I have serious issues regarding my self-esteem. Always had issues with this aspect of myself ever since Lower Secondary School. Was never popular in class- I was the class nerd ok- was the only child, never bothered to socialize with classmates as I was much more concerned about my grades and pleasing my mum then. Also the snobbish reputation of students from my school ( I came from an International School) didn't help either. I'm glad to say that I think I've improved leaps and bounds in socializing with people now- but at times it still comes back to haunt me- like when I'm with a group of people, or when I'm alone with someone and I ...just simply don't know what to say. My sense of humour ( or lack thereof) certainly doesn't help either. I really envy people who are naturals at cracking jokes and keeping people entertained. The only strong point in my character that I think I have is kindness and tenderness. But then again...there are many kind people in this world....some much more so than me. Meh. No, I'm not fishing for compliments at all- I just seriously have a low self-esteem and it's not healthy.
And yes, I feel underappreciated all the time. I don't know why. Even when I try to be nice to people, I don't know whether people appreciate it or not. It's like there's nothing special about me, I've nothing special to offer to others. :/ I know for a fact that when I leave this world- the only person who would really miss me is my mum. But then again she is all that really matters to me in this world right?
Gah, I don't know. I'm like feeling so messed up right now. Foundation 2 assessment is only slightly more than 2 weeks away, and I'm seriously not prepared for it. I thought that during the CNY holidays and Nursing Week last week, I can do some serious catching up. But unfortunately, it was not to be. CNY hols- spent time shopping and going places with family. Did read up on some notes, but not as many as I would've liked to. Last week- hospital visits were very tiring (not to mention the report to hand in on Friday as well). Plus the PBL on Monday which caused me to stay up the whole night ( 2 PBL triggers to do over the weekend man!) and M1/07 orientation, and throw in the CPR practical exam which took up my entire Saturday, my revision plan went down the drain again.
Arrrgghhhh......
p/s: Would blog in detail about CNY holidays and Nursing week in another blog!
p.p.s... Why do certain people pretend not to notice me when they walk past me in school? Or is it the other way round? :/
p.p.p.s. I have this sudden strong urge to start serious blogging ( thanks Zi Yun!) Any tips or advise on how to start is very much appreciated :) TiA
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
Being Single...and available...
Ok...so I had to submit an article to the editorial board for the Valentine's edition. I've to admit I was a bit hesistant at first, being so inexperienced about love. Nevertheless, this is what I came up with ( please don't laugh at me! :p)
Being single... and available.....
So Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. Orders for fresh bouquets of flowers are being placed. Posh and fancy restaurants with candlelit settings are being booked well in advance for the day. Love messages are being exchanged via all sort of mediums- the SMS ( most popular), on air, or the humble snail mail for those who want to adhere to traditional ways. Yes, it’s that time of the year again- when everyone gets all lovey-dovey, and have this warm fuzzy feeling in their hearts. Those who are attached would be planning for that special day- where to take their loved one to, what to buy for their other half, what exactly to wear for the occasion, etc.
As for me, it’s just going to be yet another uneventful day in my life as an IMU student. Lectures in the morning, maybe a bit of studying at night. And maybe attending the talk organized by CF on ‘How to find the love of your life’.
Yeap, I’m still single just in case you’re wondering. I’ve managed to stay single for the 24 years of my life so far, and I don’t expect that to change anytime soon.
Why, you may ask? Maybe it’s due to the fact that I have observed since young how my mum has tough luck when it comes to men- thus carving in me the mentality that I can survive without them. I don’t know.
But lately I’ve been pondering on whether I’m missing out on something by being single. The realisation has just hit me that time is ticking , and maybe it’s time I starting looking for Mr.Right. Because before I know it, I would be celebrating my 30th birthday….still being single. And I’ll watch ‘Bridget Jones’s Diary’ and thinking to myself how much I can relate to her.
People around me are starting to fall in love. We’ve just finished one semester here in IMU and already I can notice some newly formed couples in my batch. Not to mention many other couples from senior batches. When I log onto Friendster, I see friends uploading photos of themselves with their girlfriends/boyfriends. One friend of mine wrote in her Friendster blog about how her guy actually planned a romantic night out for them recently, with the flowers and dinner and all that, knocking her off her feet in awe.
When I switch on the radio, love songs dominate the airwaves. Switch on the TV, I see dramas, soap operas, movies and romantic comedies- all involving people falling in love. Romance novels can be found in almost every bookstore. ( I, for one, am a fan of these).
Curious, I asked my housemate how is it like to be in a relationship and attached to someone. She admits that one thing she misses is her freedom. Her guy calls her up almost every night to ensure that she is back home early. He doesn’t like the idea of her going out late at night, not particularly with guy friends. (Talk about having an extra parent!)
What about if your relationship doesn’t work out in the end and you both breakup? Imagine having to go through all the pain, the heartache, the sleepness nights, the times you spend staring blankly at your plate of food and staring blankly at your lecture notes in front of you, thinking of him/her or mourning over the good old times you had together? And then crying over the next love song that comes on the air because the lyrics suddenly apply to you? How many people have committed suicide due to being heartbroken over love?
Don’t get me wrong, it’s totally alright to fall in love, if the right person comes to you.
When two people fall in love, the pure and true feelings for each other that comes with it is cannot be described. They cannot stop thinking about each other day and night. I’ve yet to experience the euphoric feeling that comes with being in love, maybe it’ll come to me in the future.
Until then, I’ll continue dreaming of the time when someone will finally fall in love with humble old me- present me with flowers and jewellery on my birthday and during Valentine’s Day, bring me to posh restaurants totally at his own expense, and most important of all accept me for who I am. I’ll keep on dreaming…..
p/s: This writer wants the readers to know that she’s still single and is perfectly happy being single. However, should any guy be interested in her, she is open to any possibilities……
Being single... and available.....
So Valentine’s Day is just around the corner. Orders for fresh bouquets of flowers are being placed. Posh and fancy restaurants with candlelit settings are being booked well in advance for the day. Love messages are being exchanged via all sort of mediums- the SMS ( most popular), on air, or the humble snail mail for those who want to adhere to traditional ways. Yes, it’s that time of the year again- when everyone gets all lovey-dovey, and have this warm fuzzy feeling in their hearts. Those who are attached would be planning for that special day- where to take their loved one to, what to buy for their other half, what exactly to wear for the occasion, etc.
As for me, it’s just going to be yet another uneventful day in my life as an IMU student. Lectures in the morning, maybe a bit of studying at night. And maybe attending the talk organized by CF on ‘How to find the love of your life’.
Yeap, I’m still single just in case you’re wondering. I’ve managed to stay single for the 24 years of my life so far, and I don’t expect that to change anytime soon.
Why, you may ask? Maybe it’s due to the fact that I have observed since young how my mum has tough luck when it comes to men- thus carving in me the mentality that I can survive without them. I don’t know.
But lately I’ve been pondering on whether I’m missing out on something by being single. The realisation has just hit me that time is ticking , and maybe it’s time I starting looking for Mr.Right. Because before I know it, I would be celebrating my 30th birthday….still being single. And I’ll watch ‘Bridget Jones’s Diary’ and thinking to myself how much I can relate to her.
People around me are starting to fall in love. We’ve just finished one semester here in IMU and already I can notice some newly formed couples in my batch. Not to mention many other couples from senior batches. When I log onto Friendster, I see friends uploading photos of themselves with their girlfriends/boyfriends. One friend of mine wrote in her Friendster blog about how her guy actually planned a romantic night out for them recently, with the flowers and dinner and all that, knocking her off her feet in awe.
When I switch on the radio, love songs dominate the airwaves. Switch on the TV, I see dramas, soap operas, movies and romantic comedies- all involving people falling in love. Romance novels can be found in almost every bookstore. ( I, for one, am a fan of these).
Curious, I asked my housemate how is it like to be in a relationship and attached to someone. She admits that one thing she misses is her freedom. Her guy calls her up almost every night to ensure that she is back home early. He doesn’t like the idea of her going out late at night, not particularly with guy friends. (Talk about having an extra parent!)
What about if your relationship doesn’t work out in the end and you both breakup? Imagine having to go through all the pain, the heartache, the sleepness nights, the times you spend staring blankly at your plate of food and staring blankly at your lecture notes in front of you, thinking of him/her or mourning over the good old times you had together? And then crying over the next love song that comes on the air because the lyrics suddenly apply to you? How many people have committed suicide due to being heartbroken over love?
Don’t get me wrong, it’s totally alright to fall in love, if the right person comes to you.
When two people fall in love, the pure and true feelings for each other that comes with it is cannot be described. They cannot stop thinking about each other day and night. I’ve yet to experience the euphoric feeling that comes with being in love, maybe it’ll come to me in the future.
Until then, I’ll continue dreaming of the time when someone will finally fall in love with humble old me- present me with flowers and jewellery on my birthday and during Valentine’s Day, bring me to posh restaurants totally at his own expense, and most important of all accept me for who I am. I’ll keep on dreaming…..
p/s: This writer wants the readers to know that she’s still single and is perfectly happy being single. However, should any guy be interested in her, she is open to any possibilities……
Thursday, February 1, 2007
Happy New Year 2007!!
It's been a while since I've been blogging! Since lectures are resuming tomorrow and I'll be caught up in work again, I'd better squeeze a blog entry in tonight umm....I mean this morning.
The summative assessment which was held right before we had our Christmas/New Year break wasn't so bad after all. I think it was mainly because we were all so uber hyped up about it and all...... But still it WAS tough. Single choice questions certainly aren't as easy as they seem. You see, for example for question 1 - the question requires you to identify the false statement from the 5 choices given. You are very sure that A and C are correct statements, but you aren't so sure about the rest. So yeah, it is hard.
The Christmas/New Year break was a rather relaxing time for me, just sleeping in, going out for dinners, catching up with my favourite programme, and all that jazz.
And before I know it, the year 2006 has gone, and 2007 has arrived.
For me, the year 2006 gave me both bitter and sweet memories. What started out to be yet another normal year turned out to be the year in which a major change occured in my life. At the beginning of 2006, International Medical University certainly hadn't crossed my mind at all- never would I have predicted that I would be here now in the beginning of year 2007. That's life- with it's twist and turns and curveballs thrown at us which we never expect and which throw us off guard at times.
I remember being kept so busy with my final year dissertation in Neuroscience during the first few months. I had chosen to do a library based project, because I seriously suck at lab work. I actually quite enjoyed it, doing the research and writing out the drafts, even though I had to rush to make sure I had something to produce to my supervisor ( who is also my personal tutor) every week. I thought then that proceeding on to do a Masters and subsequently a PhD degree in Neuroscience would be my best bet, since I love doing research and writing ( and hate hate exams).
However, it was not meant to be.
As I said, life has it's way of throwing curve balls at us and catching us off guard. And yes, that was exactly what happened to me, when I wasn't allowed to graduate at the same time as my classmates because I failed 2 modules for my final year and didn't have sufficient credits. I'm still very thankful that I was permitted to resit them though, as final year students aren't usually allowed to resit any modules. I did squeeze through in the end, but that was the breaking point that finally made me decide that I've had enough of Neuroscience.
The month of August was undeniably the most hectic month of that year. Right after my resits, I had to return back to Malaysia immediately, as I was to register at International Medical University (IMU) just a few days after. I was still questioning my decision then. Orientation week was really hectic and tiring too. But I survived!
So here I am now in International Medical University (IMU), studying medicine and awaiting the beginning of Foundation 2......
and the beginning of the year 2007. I certainly am in no position to predict what awaits me in this year 2007, but I do hope that it will bring with it more joy, success and tranquility. I pray to God that he would give me the strength to face whatever challenges that I might face in this upcoming year, and may He grant me His peace and wisdom for me to overcome them and emerge triumphant in the end. I pray too that I'll grow stronger in my walk with Him this upcoming year.
I usually don't do New Year resolutions because I know that I'll end up not keeping to them, but I will do them this year anyways, just for fun.
My New Year Resolutions 2007:
1) To be persistent and consistent with my daily revision. ( Well, I've done quite a good job of this in 2006, so hopefully this continues)
2) To finally be able to score good results in university. I've been waiting soo long for this, this is loong overdue
3) To visit all, if not almost all the shopping malls in KL at least once by the end of the year ( so far I've visited Sungei Wang, MidValley, Carrefour and the latest addition Berjaya Times Square today ;)
4) To stop pestering my mum on the phone so much when I'm feeling stressed. Ok, I know I wouldn't be able to keep this one ;) She's my stress releasing outlet, you see
5) To be an even better housemate - I try my best to be nice to my housemates, and we get along great, but I think I might be a rather scary housemate when I am stressed. They're very used to me and my behaviour now though
6) I think this should be the most important one...........to be stronger in my faith and my walk with the Lord. I've to admit that I'm still learning to totally trust Him, especially since He has yet to show me His grace in my studies in the recent years. And because of that, I still put my studies first before Him. I still have a lot to learn, but I'll try.
So yeah.....I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a Happy New Year 2007!!!
God bless.
The summative assessment which was held right before we had our Christmas/New Year break wasn't so bad after all. I think it was mainly because we were all so uber hyped up about it and all...... But still it WAS tough. Single choice questions certainly aren't as easy as they seem. You see, for example for question 1 - the question requires you to identify the false statement from the 5 choices given. You are very sure that A and C are correct statements, but you aren't so sure about the rest. So yeah, it is hard.
The Christmas/New Year break was a rather relaxing time for me, just sleeping in, going out for dinners, catching up with my favourite programme, and all that jazz.
And before I know it, the year 2006 has gone, and 2007 has arrived.
For me, the year 2006 gave me both bitter and sweet memories. What started out to be yet another normal year turned out to be the year in which a major change occured in my life. At the beginning of 2006, International Medical University certainly hadn't crossed my mind at all- never would I have predicted that I would be here now in the beginning of year 2007. That's life- with it's twist and turns and curveballs thrown at us which we never expect and which throw us off guard at times.
I remember being kept so busy with my final year dissertation in Neuroscience during the first few months. I had chosen to do a library based project, because I seriously suck at lab work. I actually quite enjoyed it, doing the research and writing out the drafts, even though I had to rush to make sure I had something to produce to my supervisor ( who is also my personal tutor) every week. I thought then that proceeding on to do a Masters and subsequently a PhD degree in Neuroscience would be my best bet, since I love doing research and writing ( and hate hate exams).
However, it was not meant to be.
As I said, life has it's way of throwing curve balls at us and catching us off guard. And yes, that was exactly what happened to me, when I wasn't allowed to graduate at the same time as my classmates because I failed 2 modules for my final year and didn't have sufficient credits. I'm still very thankful that I was permitted to resit them though, as final year students aren't usually allowed to resit any modules. I did squeeze through in the end, but that was the breaking point that finally made me decide that I've had enough of Neuroscience.
The month of August was undeniably the most hectic month of that year. Right after my resits, I had to return back to Malaysia immediately, as I was to register at International Medical University (IMU) just a few days after. I was still questioning my decision then. Orientation week was really hectic and tiring too. But I survived!
So here I am now in International Medical University (IMU), studying medicine and awaiting the beginning of Foundation 2......
and the beginning of the year 2007. I certainly am in no position to predict what awaits me in this year 2007, but I do hope that it will bring with it more joy, success and tranquility. I pray to God that he would give me the strength to face whatever challenges that I might face in this upcoming year, and may He grant me His peace and wisdom for me to overcome them and emerge triumphant in the end. I pray too that I'll grow stronger in my walk with Him this upcoming year.
I usually don't do New Year resolutions because I know that I'll end up not keeping to them, but I will do them this year anyways, just for fun.
My New Year Resolutions 2007:
1) To be persistent and consistent with my daily revision. ( Well, I've done quite a good job of this in 2006, so hopefully this continues)
2) To finally be able to score good results in university. I've been waiting soo long for this, this is loong overdue
3) To visit all, if not almost all the shopping malls in KL at least once by the end of the year ( so far I've visited Sungei Wang, MidValley, Carrefour and the latest addition Berjaya Times Square today ;)
4) To stop pestering my mum on the phone so much when I'm feeling stressed. Ok, I know I wouldn't be able to keep this one ;) She's my stress releasing outlet, you see
5) To be an even better housemate - I try my best to be nice to my housemates, and we get along great, but I think I might be a rather scary housemate when I am stressed. They're very used to me and my behaviour now though
6) I think this should be the most important one...........to be stronger in my faith and my walk with the Lord. I've to admit that I'm still learning to totally trust Him, especially since He has yet to show me His grace in my studies in the recent years. And because of that, I still put my studies first before Him. I still have a lot to learn, but I'll try.
So yeah.....I would like to take this opportunity to wish you all a Happy New Year 2007!!!
God bless.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
You know how sometimes when you feel certain emotions running through your mind , you just have to record them down in the spur of the moment before they slowly subside away? That's exactly what I am going to do now, record down exactly what I am feeling at the moment, write down exactly what is going through my head right now. And then look back maybe tomorrow or a few days later and laugh back at it and think about how silly I was to have these thoughts.
Let's get straight to the point. I'm feeling stressed out right now. I am not even halfway through reading up for the PBL presentation session tomorrow. Staying up really isn't a problem for me, but waking up early is. I've got CSU (Clinical Skills Unit) session tomorrow- which begins at friggin' 8 am in the morning. I know I shouldn't be complaining - they're many ppl who have to wake up much early than me, but I am NOT a morning person. It's still ok, if I could go home in the afternoon and rest and nap. But no..... it just had to be a full day tomorrow. From CSU, to lectures, to PBL presentation in the afternoon, to latin dance class in the evening- it's a wonder if I don't drop dead tomorrow. Especially since I predict I'm gonna stay up late again tonight.
I am almost a week behind in reading up on lectures- things just keep coming my way. What with PBL presentations now 2 times per week. Then there is this CPR theory exam which we've to sit for this coming Friday. Luckily it's not tomorrow.
I end up having not more than a few hours of sleep each time- since I just simply LOVE to work in the middle of the night and the wee hours of the morning, don't ask me why - and as a result, I'm sleep deprived. And that leads to my recent mood swings. I can feel absolutely fine one minute and just feel really down and moody and upset about a trivial thing the next minute. Imagine my housemates having to tolerate that every day.
I think God was really speaking to me when this morning at church while waiting to be ushered in, I just randomly picked up a book and flipped through it. And one sentence caught my eye and stood out for me. It read ' The lack of sleep can lead to moody swings'. Whoa....it's as if the sentence was especially directed towards me.
Small things can now aggravate me. Just my housemates happily chattering to each other, finding out that two of my old friends in Cardiff are now an item - even though I never had feelings for the guy before and just treat him like a friend - receiving a quarter of the number of testimonials I sent out, etc.
Sometimes, I believe I still do suffer from low self-esteem. I always think that other girls are much prettier, smarter, more hardworking, more obedient, more deserving than me. Sometimes maybe that's the reason why guys never seem to be interested in me :p k ....k....I'm just kidding, actually I think it's more likely due to the fact that I had sort of an adversion for guys when I was younger. Now I treat them like friends too.....but...seriously I don't forsee any guy wanting to be with me. There are many other good-looking girls out there, and I can't cook. No, actually I can, but for the most part I'm lazy to :p It's a different story altogether when I cook with my housemates.
Alright, I guess I'll stop my random blurbs here and continue on with my PBL. Muacks!
Ailing
p/s: kudos to those of you who actually read through this entire blog entry!
Let's get straight to the point. I'm feeling stressed out right now. I am not even halfway through reading up for the PBL presentation session tomorrow. Staying up really isn't a problem for me, but waking up early is. I've got CSU (Clinical Skills Unit) session tomorrow- which begins at friggin' 8 am in the morning. I know I shouldn't be complaining - they're many ppl who have to wake up much early than me, but I am NOT a morning person. It's still ok, if I could go home in the afternoon and rest and nap. But no..... it just had to be a full day tomorrow. From CSU, to lectures, to PBL presentation in the afternoon, to latin dance class in the evening- it's a wonder if I don't drop dead tomorrow. Especially since I predict I'm gonna stay up late again tonight.
I am almost a week behind in reading up on lectures- things just keep coming my way. What with PBL presentations now 2 times per week. Then there is this CPR theory exam which we've to sit for this coming Friday. Luckily it's not tomorrow.
I end up having not more than a few hours of sleep each time- since I just simply LOVE to work in the middle of the night and the wee hours of the morning, don't ask me why - and as a result, I'm sleep deprived. And that leads to my recent mood swings. I can feel absolutely fine one minute and just feel really down and moody and upset about a trivial thing the next minute. Imagine my housemates having to tolerate that every day.
I think God was really speaking to me when this morning at church while waiting to be ushered in, I just randomly picked up a book and flipped through it. And one sentence caught my eye and stood out for me. It read ' The lack of sleep can lead to moody swings'. Whoa....it's as if the sentence was especially directed towards me.
Small things can now aggravate me. Just my housemates happily chattering to each other, finding out that two of my old friends in Cardiff are now an item - even though I never had feelings for the guy before and just treat him like a friend - receiving a quarter of the number of testimonials I sent out, etc.
Sometimes, I believe I still do suffer from low self-esteem. I always think that other girls are much prettier, smarter, more hardworking, more obedient, more deserving than me. Sometimes maybe that's the reason why guys never seem to be interested in me :p k ....k....I'm just kidding, actually I think it's more likely due to the fact that I had sort of an adversion for guys when I was younger. Now I treat them like friends too.....but...seriously I don't forsee any guy wanting to be with me. There are many other good-looking girls out there, and I can't cook. No, actually I can, but for the most part I'm lazy to :p It's a different story altogether when I cook with my housemates.
Alright, I guess I'll stop my random blurbs here and continue on with my PBL. Muacks!
Ailing
p/s: kudos to those of you who actually read through this entire blog entry!
Wednesday, January 3, 2007
Foundation 2
So yeah, we started our Foundation 2 course today. In many ways, I suddenly feel as if I'm already a Semester 2 student, although we aren't officially Semester 2 students yet until after the Chinese New Year break. You see, we are already starting to learn about stuff which usually Semester 2 students learn - such as General Pathology, Microbiology, Parasitology, Immunology and Pharmacology, and last but not least, we are starting Clinical Skills soon. I am most weary about Clinical Skills, but hopefully it wouldn't be so bad because this semester we are only going to be taught some basic stuff like history taking, measuring pulse, blood pressure and temperature. The main reason why we are now learning Sem 2 stuff when we are not really yet Sem 2 students is because students of the previous batches had their big End of Semester exams after Foundation 1, which would be Semester 1 for them, while we are only gonna have our big exams at the end of our Sem 2.
Today, I attended a talk on New Year Resolutions by one of the IMU lecturers. It was organized by the Christian Fellowship. The main reason I report this in my blog is because one message stood out for me - we must always look ahead and press ahead and never harp on our past mistakes or failures. Or else we will never move on.
Philippians Chapter 3 Verse 12-14 says :
'Not that I have already obtained all this or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet ot have taken hold of it. But one thing I do : Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead. I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.'
This is something which I'm really struggling to do. For example, everytime I sit for an exam, I would always try to recall back the paper and the questions asked, and then go home to check for the answers. And moan if I discovered that I've gotten them wrong. Also, the disappointments that I went through earlier on last year and also the 2 years before, I know that I've to learn to let go. I've to learn not to live in my past, but to press ahead towards the future. Only then can I succeed. This would not be as easy as it seems, I know. But I'll make it my 7th new year resolution to add on to the first 6 which I've mentioned in my previous blog.
Yet another new year resolution that I forgot to put down yesterday - to do more regular exercise. I've been really neglecting my exercise- preferring to take a nap in the evenings instead of going jogging or doing other forms of work out. Hopefully, with lectures starting at 10:30 am for the most part this term, ( instead of 8 am previously) I would be able to squeeze in more regular exercise from now on. I don't know how well will I be able to keep to this resolution, being the lazy bum I am :p
Today, I attended a talk on New Year Resolutions by one of the IMU lecturers. It was organized by the Christian Fellowship. The main reason I report this in my blog is because one message stood out for me - we must always look ahead and press ahead and never harp on our past mistakes or failures. Or else we will never move on.
Philippians Chapter 3 Verse 12-14 says :
'Not that I have already obtained all this or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. Brothers, I do not consider myself yet ot have taken hold of it. But one thing I do : Forgetting what is behind and straining towards what is ahead. I press on towards the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenwards in Christ Jesus.'
This is something which I'm really struggling to do. For example, everytime I sit for an exam, I would always try to recall back the paper and the questions asked, and then go home to check for the answers. And moan if I discovered that I've gotten them wrong. Also, the disappointments that I went through earlier on last year and also the 2 years before, I know that I've to learn to let go. I've to learn not to live in my past, but to press ahead towards the future. Only then can I succeed. This would not be as easy as it seems, I know. But I'll make it my 7th new year resolution to add on to the first 6 which I've mentioned in my previous blog.
Yet another new year resolution that I forgot to put down yesterday - to do more regular exercise. I've been really neglecting my exercise- preferring to take a nap in the evenings instead of going jogging or doing other forms of work out. Hopefully, with lectures starting at 10:30 am for the most part this term, ( instead of 8 am previously) I would be able to squeeze in more regular exercise from now on. I don't know how well will I be able to keep to this resolution, being the lazy bum I am :p
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